Flashback 2008
My "littles" in 2008 at a neighbor's Birthday Party.
I was really happy to find these photos today stored in one of
my online albums.
Back when my kids were tiny I had over
14,000 photos on my computer. No one ever told me about "backing up" or storing the images online.
Well, my computer crashed on fateful day and I will admit that I went into a depression over all the lost images.
I still cry when I think about it.
Since then I have tried to back up regularly, store images on disc and also in online albums.
This time in my life brings back mixed emotions. My little guy Trevan was (and still can be) a handful. He was my "high maintenance baby". Turner had been diagnosed as "Autistic" at 18months and during those years we had a therapist come to our home for 3 hrs each day.
When he was 3 he finally started speaking and doing sign language.
He was very overstimulated by most things and we had a hard time going out of the house. He screamed 90% of the time.
I spent a lot of time at home where I cared for my neighbor's boys and just tried my best to be the best mom to my boys as I could. I did not have much of a social life outside of dealing with Turner's special needs and the need of trying to raise an unruly teen. Taylor had begun to act out in school and was becoming a bit of a wild child.
I didn't think at that time that I would ever see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I actually miss {at times} those years where they were wee ones.
I feel sad that I feel like I missed so much joy. I was so overwhelmed and tired and felt burdened most of the time.
I felt like I was failing them - even though I did the best job I could have.
What I miss most are the images of those precious moments that I captured to treasure forever that are now lost. Only do I have them in my minds eye. I don't have them to share with my boys...
that makes me the saddest of all.
Don't learn the hard way.
Back up your images, store on disc and pay a small fee to upload and store them on the web!!
XOXO
Janean